I hate the way you make me feel. i hate your scent, i hate the way it never washed off my pillow. i hate your stupid texts. i hate the smile they left on my face. i hate how happy you made me. i hate how your presence fixed everything. i hate how the simple sound of your voice made me happy. i hate how you begged me not to leave you when i was determined to go. i hate that i stayed. i hate the fact that i gave you everything i had to give. i hate that i knew you weren’t going to stay. i hate that you made me believe you were. i hate how you picked me up and fixed me. i hate that you dropped and shattered me. i hate that i gave you something you can never return. i hate that i’m here thinking about you at 3:28 a.m. i hate that you’re sound asleep. i hate how much i trusted you. i hate your lies. i hate how every second i spent by your side made me feel. i hate that nothing will compare to the moments we spent together. i hate how you planted the growing idea of our future in me. i hate that everyone else is more important to you. i hate that no one was more important to me than you. i hate the way you kissed me. i hate that every kiss you gave me felt so true. i hate how you can just pick up and forget about five years. i hate how you can fix everything . i hate knowing you won’t. i hate that you gave my life meaning and purpose when nothing and no one else did. i hate that its gone. i hate that you’re happy . i hate that i’m stuck. i hate that i’ll never forget the promises you made. i hate that i’m here. i hate that i’ll never move on. i hate that i have to pretend i’m okay. i hate myself for not being good enough. i hate that after all this time i’m still in love with you. i hate that you are not. I hate that i’ll never hate you
I was never happier than when you were near me and never more sad than when I watched you walk into that airport.
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